I just realized that while my posts over the last few days have covered topics that are important to me… none of them covered why I need to love myself. Or more to the point, how do I even start to do this? There doesn’t seem to be some special formula to learn to love yourself and sadly my magic wand is broken so I am at a bit of a loss as to how to make this happen.
So far what i have been able to figure out.. is that you either love yourself or you don’t. There doesn’t seem to be any middle ground, no levels of grey… it is all very black and white when it comes to loving one self. Yet that made me start to wonder, because there are different kinds of love. You can be in love, you can love someone, you can love certain qualities in a person, you can love a parent, you can love a child… but when it comes to loving one self I don’t see all the different facets of love occurring.
So I wonder if that is maybe how I need to start to love myself. That I need to start to love the child that I once was and accept her, love her, cherish her. That I need to love the adult I have become and accept her, love her, cherish her. That I need to love certain qualities that I possess, and come to terms with the qualities that I don’t possess and stop trying to be something I am not. That I need to love me as me.
Thinking on this more… I think it needs to still be broken down a bit more as it still feels overwhelming, but I think it is a start. (which is a good thing)
Much better then the advice that I was given which was, “decide to love yourself”… which is great and all but my decision to love myself doesn’t seem to stick when sh** hits the fan.
So while it isn’t a huge step, I do think this is a step in the right direction.